Bebe Rexha’s struggle with anxiety might prevent her from attending tonight’s MTV Video Music Awards. The “I’m Good (Blue)” singer shared with her fans on TikTok Monday (September 11) that she is considering skipping the awards show, for which she is nominated in one of the categories. Rexha, 34, noted that though she is “grateful and blessed to be invited,” she’s also feeling distressed. In her TikTok, she says, “I know that the criticism comes with the territory, so I am all good with that. I mean, sometimes it does get to me. I am human. But I wanted just to talk about this because I meet a lot of people, and a lot of times, they’ll be like, ‘Oh my god, I love how you’re all about positivity and confidence.’ Let me tell you, right now, I’m not feeling so confident.”

The performer, who has previously responded to criticism about her appearance, added, “I am so anxious and stressed about going on the red carpet and, I guess, people talking about my weight because I’m not really loving myself right now.” As Bebe noted, she’s “not really feeling like the bad bitch” that she usually channels. “I guess everybody has these days and nobody ever feels perfect,” she continued, “and that’s why I wanted to make this video.”